My older brother would be 29 today. It still seems crazy he didn't make it past 11. And now that I have done so much more then he ever did. I wonder everyday how my life would be different then it is today had he not choose to leave? I wonder what he would look like? If he would have kids? A wife? If we would be close like we were when we were little? My life will never feel complete because he is missing..!!! Christopher you are forever and always loved, missed and thought of and today will always be your day!!!
Today is tougher then yesterday
It gets worse every year
Today I would love nothing more
Then to have you near
At 11 you made a life decision
You could never rethink
You didn't consider all the people
All the lives you would also changed in a blink
We talked about you vaguely
Just enough to not cry
Today you would be 29
And we can't even say hi!
Mom tears up
And I hold back
I wait till the dark
Then self control I lack
People said it will get easier
But they for sure lied
Because the truth is
It never gets easier saying good-bye
Today saddens my heart
My brother you will always be
You should be blown out candles
You should be with me
I'll you forever
I'll miss you for always